plant it, with hope.
...and now you'll live forever
1. ...and now you'll live forever
2. more populous than grains of sand
3. all the world is throwing rocks
4. i didn't dry your eyes part two
5. this town ain't paris, france you know
8. no stars, no cards, no lines
our story now begins...
2. just as it arrives, it leaves
6. that's my way of keeping track of time
1) they're cheering for you
we, as kids, would meet by the tree stump near the fence
where you sang every beatles song that
popped into your head and you said your favorite was
mccartney, mine was harrison and
anytime i hear those songs
i see your face and i wish
you were here to tell me let it be
you had a dream to be a composer
of songs that would ease the pain of anguished hearts
and you asked for my prediction
you had my faith before we grew up
i had a dream to be a famous painter
before you left we promised that
we would never quit until we'd made it
those special words remain on my pallet
i had listened to songs you wrote
i must admit that i had gotten kinda choked up
when you sang of us and how we would grow to be
the artists that we always wanted
i then left your album looping all night long
it brought me back to when we used to be just kids
so then i sent you a letter with the words
''hi! meet me at the tree where we had met many times,
but not in ten years. i cannot wait to hear your laughter! :D''
but as the night progressed you never appeared
i nearly left but as i turned your mom stood in place with
bloodshot eyes then she spun the news
you never read the
writing i dispatched since you were stolen by a car
accident then your mother's tears poured on my shirt
and all i could do was resolve to take your dream and
turn it into mine
i've done my best to write songs
you'd be proud of
and i imagine you with me on stage
and our voices blend like a choir
take a bow, they're cheering for you
now, years have passed but still i'm always compelled
to trace my steps to that old tree that has our initials
in big letters, they give me hope
to see you there someday
2) it's now a badge
the person you leave in your wake, you know
remains alive without your touch
and i will not allow the doom you've wished on me
you're in for a big surprise
since
you've lost your influence, i'm not sorry to say
your voice shall go unheard
why?
all you choose to leave behind
still grows in your absence and
one day you will hear the songs i've sown
and realize
i can be strong
with or without you
and i'll grow stronger still
to bear the burden you have left on me but
it's not to spite you although i'm sure
you think that i've kept some grudge but
without your departure these melodies wouldn't
have swelled deep within my lungs
and
i know you left to travel far and see the world
but there's a journey here
where?
upon a road you never bothered
to walk and now we will never hear
the songs that might have been
if we sang
so, for now, i'll sing this one for me
i don't need a duet
when just one voice can shake the earth
take cover
i won't abandon
our old mementos
because they show me the times
that we once shared
yet show me futures brighter still, so
i will not forget you like you
seemed to forget me
because your past is part of who you are
and trust me,
i do not regret this hell you left to me
it's now a badge to show the lessons you have taught
with your goodbye
3) there may be a chorus
placed in my palm are the remnants
of what we've shared
my hand tenses ready to cast
into the air
what comes ahead i am unsure
but i'm prepared
my hand opens and with the wind
it is revealed to us our
youth contained a seed
that yearned for growth
we couldn't give each other
but i'll take what we have seen and heard and i promise
until i've left this earth that you'll stay with me
you'll sing through my lungs, see through my eyes and
as we march our splitting trails recall that i shall bear no hatred for you and should you see me
i would only take your pain away
we were just kids, there was a globe
we hadn't seen
we both went south but we left town
separately
time striped the pain, leaving us one
feeling to hold
we'll always know that there's a voice
we can rely on to tell
us the truth when all the world
will sweetly recite lies
so we
should be grateful for our time and though
it's come and gone there's no need to
keep what was once so bitter
we will ripen into somethin sweet
and i won't take for granted all i've learned
and all i've yet to learn
and i will be filled with courage
just cause you once told me i was strong
behind this door
there is a world ready to hurt you
but at your back
is all the strength of everyone who's loved you
so release your fear because our hands will keep you
floating through the tides you've swam against
and through the darkness that's ahead i will be the
brightest tower off the coast that we've always called home
and though i'm happy that you've grown and feel content in letting go, who knows what the future holds?
in there, may be a chorus for our love
4) this song is a seed
do you contemplate
of what might have been
had we not
bitten our tongues
before the summer's end?
have you ever dreamed
of a future where
you and i
exist in times
where we are all we've known?
i'm not much for speculating but
i think if we ever took a chance
we might have turned the embers from every love we'd ever failed
into an inferno
but i guess we'll never know
it's no fault of ours
that our lives diverged
just as roads
can go astray
they still may lead you home
though i do lament
i still comprehend
that our days
are better spent
on songs that are unsung
maybe it was never meant to be but i
from time to time wonder if there's a life
for us in some other world we'll never find
or are we not looking?
i'm not sure we'll ever know
and if one day this song should fall on your ears,
you know where you can find me
this song is a seed and i plant it, with hope
that we may one day grow with it
if there's a sun
then there is a chance
that we
may one day be
5) the answer is no
there are no combination of words
that would truly tell the story of what was
but still i'll document it in song
so there exists proof we were here
the first verse will detail how we met
and from there how greetings had blossomed into
a world that we built with hearts and hands
and maintained with willing sacrifice
but father time will grasp this life
and take it away eventually
now at least there will be this chorus to
march in our stead
and if the world should ever burn
now there would at least be remnants
of the time we shared
within these words
that survived each our lifetimes
and should the world return one day
then they may be shocked to find that
this was all that lived
through days long gone:
a song we wrote about a song
the second verse will heavily stress
the importance of leaving something behind
if not for feeling part of this world
then knowing you tried to change it
the thought that this earth could lumber on
without ever knowing about all you gave
is something i cannot comprehend
and so in these notes you will live on
but sometimes songs can go unheard
and yearn as they may, they're never found
but let the second chorus awaken
both of our hopes
so should the sea be frozen still
well, one day the sun could melt it
and within the ice
exists our lives
upon sheet music we rest
and should it's roots regrow one day
then they will be traceable to
early in july
a summer night
held what inspired this, so
do you remember when we stayed up all night
and looked at the fireworks lighting the sky
and wondered if we would ever have shone so bright as they
if we hadn't met?
well... the answer is no
6) on every march 9th
my footsteps haven't reached
you in some time
but this day is your birthday
thought i'd stop by
and every spring when i do
i carry some presents for you
and after they're opened
you still keep the boxes
cause they're special too
but trinkets can't
show you how much
i wish i saw you every day
when i can't
and still one gift remains
that old refrain
you always call your favorite
i start to play
but i haven't sung in a year
so my hands are quaking with fear
but then my eyelids shut
i envision your smile
my fingers compose
though it strains me so much
like clockwork, i return to here
where you were placed below the ground
because i still think you'll come back if i say
''please?''
and you don't answer back
but that's okay
i'll ask on every march 9th
you might someday
7) pretend we're on the phone
when my ears caught music from my youth, something triggered
realization sank into my chest then stomach
lost are all the years where i had braced for tomorrows
in it's place were mornings of regrets and some doubt
that i could truly be who i said i'd be
and often i reflect on what i'd say
were i to see you
i imagine it would sound something like this:
it's been seven years since i left
our hometown
i imagine you here with me quite often
life has turned out more difficult than we'd heard
but i still keep hope that i might make you proud and
though there are times where i feel i should give up
it's at that moment that i remember
when you said ''kevin, do it for me.''
''i will.''
i shall remain on this journey, i have no choice to
and within me i will save your words to guide me
they will be the light to break the clouds that were anchors
and when i return to your doorstep i'll recite
that i fulfilled my promise from long ago and
when this scene plays inside my mind
this is what takes place:
you put your phone
on the hook
cause pretending's done
8) because you taught me to
we had come so far
and seen so much
because there's so much more we haven't seen
i'll keep hope
that some day
not far from now
you'll yearn to be
with me
and we
could go
to where
you used to take me
back when i was young
so i could pretend
you'd never be gone
now who will push me
so i can swing?
not you
but this is not farewell
it's just an end
a single phase of life completes and then
what comes next
is something
nobody knows
but there is one
thing i
cannot
let go
and that
is when i look at
a picture of you
my chest aches so much
from wishing i knew
if i'd made you proud
to be my mom
i hope
there will never be a night
as special as what we shared
with the wind whipping our faces
you then had declared
that even though a life can come to an end,
it's love lives on in stead
i hope there will be a day
as beautiful as the day
that i dream of when im falling asleep
in our house
where we are holding hands and starting to cross
a street we've never known
mom, i look both ways
1) and now you'll live forever
back when we were still kids
i would never have thought
that we'd end up in this situation
how could the days
where we just played
turn into tears of shame so hot
that you would run
before we've begun
to see
what the world outside
offers you and i
now we'll never find out
i wish we had
i'm not sure what we did
to make you run away
but i'm sure it was something awful
cause
you always smiled
despite all the cruel
things that this world's given you
i'm shamed
it took your death
to comprehend
your intents to please us all
weren't because you want
ed to be the one praised
you only gave
every song that you've sung
is a special lesson
i will never forget
that my life's in your debt
every droplet of blood
every eyelid that floods
will be you living on
one day they will listen to
every word that you've said
as they climb into bed
with the night in the sky
you'll whisper lullabies
into their restless ears
and they'll shed with thier tears
all the day's pain away
your dreams will someday come true
2) more populous than grains of sand
it's raining so i don't know if you're crying cause
the tears blend in
but just the same
i'll wipe the rain
you have no reason to cry because i have found
though weather can change so quickly
the climate cannot alter fate
it's here with you
i'll start anew
eventually all storms will just fade into something resembling the
sun to dry every iris that's soaked
heat to burn everything you've not yet left
behind in the ivy and vines
of your past
let's forget everything
that we've done or should have done and
choose a life away from expectations
of our parents
there's no limits to what we could do if we should ever hold each other's hands because
there's power in unity that the human brain cannot explain
i'd never fail with
you right here
through sleet and snow across the globe we would go
marching with our feet as drumbeats
upon this earth it seems we're perched
but eyes won't see that we're set free
the jaded glare yet still we won't stop our crusade to show all that love
lives despite all of it's broken glands
love is more populous than grains of sand
you don't have to scour the earth
it's right here
i have waited all my life to sing a song with you as
my duet but i'm not sure which note we should be singing
whatever we choose let's take a deep breath and sustain this note forever and ever
that was so long ago
and now we are old
and though we have grown
it still feels so new
awaking to you
and spending my day
staring at your face
it's wrinkles and all
say you will soon expire
as will i too
i finally comprehend
that every song must end
3) all the world is throwing rocks
kevin
i thought by now you'd shed the past
and leave this room behind
but you refuse to grow
there's a world outside
to soothe your mind
i'm begging you to leave
i'm sick of praying for you but i will do it one last time
how could you let her pass you?
when she is eager to love you?
just need a sip of water
to cease a taste that was bitter
rain, please, at least wash my past away?
redemption
is what you have been waiting for but it's
something you have
to go out and get, so dress
prepare yourself to see
regrets wilting
and hope begin to bloom
i'd never thought you'd come this far
but i'm glad that i was wrong
she is giving another
chance to finally remember
what it feels like to hold
another hand and to break the
ceiling, to stand tall and seize the day
this may be what's left of
all of the chances you had
but you left with all the days you spent
just sleeping away
fuck this place
don't you ever come back
4) i didn't dry your eyes part two
today is the day i'm departing to see you
i'm dressed all in white still i'm not as divine
as the look of surprise that will be on your face
when i've finally taken the road that will rekindle us
i'd say it's fair to question
this sudden expedition
the reason is quite simple
on this earth
i have searched
there is no any other
that i require
so now the odyssey begins
i can't live in our house
without you around
your room is exactly as it was the
day you were stolen from me and it will always be
in this state just in case you return but it's not my concern
anymore, i'll restore us by tracing your steps
and as the hours unwind
they only serve to remind
me of the past i covet
the tales that
we have told
shall not be any greater
than the future that lies ahead for you and i
i have shed all my fear
at last i'm prepared
and you will never have to face a world alone
as long as i live i'll track you down to tell you life's allright
and here's one sign:
we're still alive
i'm squinting from light that envelopes my eyes
when i see once again it's the look of surprise that i knew would exist on your face but just hastily faded to weeping while you say ''what took you so long?''
before i reply i start drying your eyes then i say ''this mistake i will never make ever again''
5) this town ain't paris, france you know
and you believe she's alright
because she states it's so
then you abandon her once more
for the evenings you have spent
to swallow your dreams
but you consume hers as well
every present in the world
would never fill the void
you've left inside of her
don't you say she's something special and then
not remain with her to be with your friends
i'm the better liar so i would know
every word you say is just something you think she wants to hear
i'm sure you care but why would you have
a daughter if you could not love her too?
i'm sure
just because your love is lost
don't mean it can be found
this town ain't paris, france you know
now she's staying up all night
for letters you don't write
she waits and waits and waits for
you to show her any signs
of who you were before
excuses on the door
don't you call yourself a father because
even mannequins expose fewer flaws
even though she's just a child she knows
what it means to be the dirt that's swept under the carpet
i'm sure you care but why would you have
a daughter if you could not love her too?
i'm sure
6) one billion words
i will keep my camera with me
someday you will see what i've seen
i've photographed every sunset
nothing could eclipse the moment
we reunite at the end of our lives and
these reels will show you what you have missed
but it's hard to focus
even with the best lens
i admit my skills are meager but i
will be your eyes
you won't miss anything
cause i've kept a list
of everything that is your favorite
anything with green betwixt it
fireworks and pies with pecans
zoomed in shots of surfaces you wish
you could touch but there's only so much
i can do despite my deepest wishes
there exists no shutter
to contain the wonder
of the stars at night but ill see to it
that i submit
these constallations
explaining my one fate
i'm not sure what will
happen when i have closed my eyes
for the last time but i know that
i will see you once more to keep my promise
so bury me with negatives and
i'll just use this coffin as my
darkroom to develop photos
they must be in color so i'll
keep out the light or work
only at night
when they're finished i will say this to you:
i have kept my camera with me
now i'll show you all that i've seen
let's start with my favorite photo
i took it the day you went to
this place without me but i never worried
because i knew we'd meet again
say cheese!
7) a map is not required
this sea was the place where she used to swim
and the beach has the footprints we left back then
when we met we were freezing from cold
but our stories, we told
in the words we found warmth
and i recall
how she said that when she was here
that her loneliness was left on the pier
she could wade through the waves off the shore
so she dared to explore
but the currents contained
her final day
this jar you see before you
is all that's left of her so
tonight i spread her ashes
into the yearning ocean
this jar cannot contain her
the sea is waiting for her
the tide pulls in as her ashes say bye
she's gone but she lingers inside my mind
could it be that our lives are still intertwined
and the weights that before made me sink
they are no longer linked
so a magnetic pull
has beckoned me
to a voyage into the sea
as the salt of my tears make it hard to see
with a taste they remind me of her
now i can't be deterred
and tonight i set sail
because one fact:
all rivers flow to oceans
i know that's where i'll find her
and though a storm is looming
only my quest consumes me
i'm casting off to find her
a map is not required
my compass is inside of my chest
and though my ship is tangled in nets of seaweed
i believe it's just her hair
maybe this is her way of telling me that i should
stay with her this time
i'll always wish i was here to save her on that night
8) no stars, no cards, no lines
it was many Junes ago when you snuffed your flame to escape
and i comprehend that you couldn't bare the pressure upon you
despite isolation i have no quarrel with your abandon
in turn you should have no fear for my absent heart won't grow because
there will never be stars aligned enough
to make me love another girl
there's no lines upon my palm that say i'll wish for someone new
even though you're gone you march on in my memory
we're still thick as thieves
i just occupy myself by recalling features you own
and when they're amalgamated they cause my insides to sink deep
there won't be another image to seize what's left of my years here
one day you will know my virtue but this song
will do fine for now so
there is no tarot card that will predict
me falling for another girl
there's no crystal ball that will depict me taking off this ring
even when i'm gone my grave will rest right beside yours
always in accord
there's only one future that is true:
it's my reunion with you
1) the car is coming closer
i will be
on this swing
until you decide to get me
it's the set
across from school
in the half developed park
though the days
place thier weight
on the top sides of my eyelids
i refuse
i refuse
to be asleep when you arrive
so i stay awake
use the cars to count the days
i have waited eyes wide open believing you will come
somewhere far, you are
strumming your nylon guitar
well it's ok, take your time
you got all night
cause i'll be on this swing the rest of my life
i chose this
certain place
cause it was here that i first realized
i had known
you so long
but i'd just then seen your eyes
and my past
it erased
and i didnt even notice
for my fate
had been sketched
on the surface of your face
and from that point on
i can't believe that i belong
to a world that would keep both of us
away for 16 years
but i won't make a fuss
because when it comes to us
a little time is so much better
than none at all
i'm just grateful to have possessed you
i know you hear me now
darling, we are allowed
to make mistakes in youth
but now i'll tell the truth
the truth
the truth is
the truth is
the truth is
the truth is
the truth is we were much too beautiful to be apart
you and i
are victims of
Cupid's darts
so it's been
several years
and it may be a several more but
i don't care
i don't keep
track of time because i know
you are my
moonlit tide
and i'm telling you come closer
there is no
need to fight
we are inevitable
so if you don't mind
even though i have some time
i'd pick sooner over later to make you mine again
is that you down the road
driving towards me really slow
could it be
could it be
you have finally come
the car is coming closer..
..and it's you.
2) just as it arrives, it leaves
it's such a shame we'll never be
like we were when seventeen
but we still have memories
for always
remember on that windy night
wandering with squinted eyes
up some trails without a guide
for always
eventually we reached the top
leaned against a massive rock
promised we would never stop
for always
how were we to know what the distant future holds?
how could we expect the events that happen
next?
like all who came before
we're just a metaphor
of yesterday's sunset
that i wouldn't dare regret
you know that pick around your neck
everyday i used to check
if you wore it and you did
for always
at least you did til near the end
said it fell behind your desk
knew that we were over then
for always
you see it wasn't just a pick
it was something i couldn't
show to you and never did
for always
we were so naive to expect that we would be
exceptions to the rules that were made in Cupid's school
will we meet again?
will we make amends?
i guess it's up to fate
the same one that took you away
then there's every friday night
you would take us for ride
only you and i collide
for always
we would watch a silver screen
while affection intervenes
every exposition scene
for always
though the movie's over with
borders isn't closed quite yet
books are waiting to be read
for always
every memory will become a melody
a tragedy unfolds and some wisdom then is born
if you are in love
and you're also young
you'll find out just like me
just as love arrives, it leaves
3) no bread crumbs
does a bottle's rim
caress your lips
the way i used to?
is it awake all night
to speak you despite
the day coming soon?
and does it sing to you
before you fall asleep
to dream of life
where you musn't drink a bottle
to feel like what's around you is real?
and does your boyfriend think
that you only drink
to feel some comfort?
and will he ever know
that you once before
were happy as you were?
and at the bottom of this bottle
lies regret
consuming you
and it wants what you can't give it
when i just want forgiveness
like you
and are your parents proud
of how your life turned out
is it everything they dreamed?
and do your friends supply
the endless lies
to make you feel redeemed?
and will they be patient enough
to watch you slip
and crash into a sea
that swallows any swimmer
who dares enough to enter?
they won't
you choose to dream
when you could have anything
but me
and the past
in the palms
of your hands
and do you think i care
after what we've shared?
i'm not sure if i do
it's your mistake to make
but i refuse to stay
and watch your life slip through
the middle
of your fingers just like sand
that scatters with the wind
into every direction
take comfort in your destruction
without me
4) people grow from trees
how i wish you could see through my eyes tonight
oh friends i've left behind
i never said goodbye
because
it's too hard to explain
i kept hearing her name
so i just ran away... mm-hmm
and so i write these words
to let ya know i'm still
alive
and i have
so much
to say
ana you have grown into a fashion queen
you're singing melodies
of abba with such ease
dancing
like nobody is looking
and you don't have a care
your honesty is bare.. mm-hmm
michelle you have been blessed with such a perfect face
who cares what pictures say
a thousand words are fake
not mine
they will stand the test of time
a hundred years from now
i will sing this til i'm out.. of breath
jeremy i don't know what to say to you
cause you are not my friend
you're my brother til we're dead
of course
that just goes without saying
and though we seldom talk
you're always in my thoughts... mm-hmm
austin i have saved the best for last because
when on the verge of death
you were my only friend
and i
am eternally grateful
with these remaining days
i'll try my best to repay.. this debt
and though this song will end
i may sing to you again
i don't know when
but some
day soon
everyone i'm sorry that i ran away
i just wanted you to be
completely proud of me
i tried
even though i have failed
i will meet you by the tree
in a decade, maybe three... or four
5) a note that reads
dearest sarah
im leaving this note
just for you
to explain
why i'm leaving
it's kinda hard
to understand
but i know
that you will
because we both share the same dream
but i won't return until you're proud of me
dearest sarah
there's so many miles
between us both
on the phone
every night
is only good
for so long
i can't stand
not to touch
the woman that i want
so i say goodbye
and i hang up
i left because
i'm tired of
not being who
i wanted to
be for you and only you
sarah
dearest sarah
i don't expect
you to wait
we are young
and we must grow
and we each have roads to walk
but i hope
that you know
if i have to, i will wait
just leave me a note
and i will wait
6) that's my way of keeping track of time
you know i never used to drink
but these days it's my only link
to understanding what it is
to cope with loss to feel regret and
my how time has really flown
just yesterday i had someone
these days i have the extra space
in my bed there's a guitar case
that's sleeping where you used to be
oh you know i never used to drink this way
did i just hear a noise at my door?
i go to check but nobody's there
today i found a photograph
of me when i was ten and laughing
oh it's funny how a life can change
from wondering why the sky is grey
into abandoning precaution giving
time away like something
you can get for free
like happiness has just one key
but things aren't always what they seem
cause every failure's once a dream
and mine it still has never changed
i wish to write a song that never fades
did i just hear a noise at my door?
i go to check but nobody's there
i just realized it's new year's eve well
thats's my way of keeping track of time
cause fate has never failed it
seems i always spend this night alone and
wonder where you are and who you plan
on kissing when this year expires leaving in it's wake a trail of memories you can't escape the past i hear, it's just a burden that we'll have to bear
hold a second
someone's at my door
i open up the locks and twist
the doorknob
all to find the girl
whom i am writing this song for
my mouth opens to speak
with tears upon my cheeks, my body says
''hello emma, i'm happy to see you again.''
7) i didn't dry your eyes
we were once young
with reckless blood
our parents had said ''those kids, they think they're in love''
but that's just a word
a word can't define
the feeling that i would rather die
than forget the happiest time of my life
when we were young
making mistakes
is apart of life
but couldn't they happen when i was much older
when i
had someone to lose
other than you
nothing's more painful than the truth
not even my honesty could save
you from passing away
seconds and minutes and hours and days upon weeks into months
into years into decades of time that i wished i had spent
loving you til your death
my final regret
is before you died
i didn't dry your eyes
if someone out there
can hear my voice
i only ask that if you're given a choice
don't tell any lies
not one single lie
remember my dying words oh i have wasted my lifetime all
cause i
was too young
to know what was love
8) this is not a song
our story now begins
with a choice of where to sit
in a school thats full of kids in lust
the hero is a boy
with a tousled midnight crown
and a raspy voice he's ashamed of
he slumps into a chair
next to a girl with bared
shoulders of cinnamon
and then the trouble starts
with a face like abstract art
he softly says ''hi my name is kevin''
she carefully composed
some words next thing you know
he knew a name he'd not soon forget
what started as just friends
came quickly to an end
thier hands entangled on a walk
they met nearby the swings
and spoke of dangerous things
the distance closing from their mouths
and then there was a kiss
their lips a perfect fit
never would they breathe again
the rumors spread around
that somewhere love was found
the miners came to town so fast
some strings made of nylon
play the chords from Everlong
and the music that they make sounds pure
they resolve to share a name
so he buys a diamond ring
and starts the journey towards her house
but now there is a twist
with a bottle to her lips
they sit upon the floor
but the words come out no more
her body language says
they're coming to an end
and then they moved away
haven't spoken to this day
but they're planning all the things they'd say
his heart begins to sink
as Jeremy says point blank
she's drownin in some alcohol
avoiding people's eyes
on seperate beds they lie
and strum the chords to this song
but this is not a song
it's a reqiuem for their love
here lies... kevin and emma
our story has no end
cause love will always mend
a song sung out of key